This has been really hard on me too. I really want them to learn from their mistakes. Lessons like responsibility, discipline, promptness, and trustworthiness are just a few of the things we have been dealing with. I know these character traits don´t develope overnight but they sure are tough to instill on a daily basis.
I have been doing some internalizing too. Maybe, they are not seeing these qualities enough in me and thus they are having a more difficult time cultivating them in their lives.
Don´t get me wrong, we have good moments too. Like when they decide they are going to clean out their toys to give all the toys they are too old for to a younger missionary child we know. Like when they stick up for a boy in the park who is getting picked on, like when they say thank you all on their own for something I normally do for them, and like when they go out to hand out invitations for church with us.
I know I need to focus on these things, but at the same time I desire so much more. I need to get myself more disciplined, more responsible, more prompt, so they see in me an example to follow.
Pray as I endevor to finish out this school year with a renewed strength to get back to the schedule and chore at hand.